The Evergreen Forest Where The Northern Wolf Lies

Yup... Everything Will Fall Down & Will Be Crushed Into Oblivion

2005-03-15T00:05:00.000-08:00

Yes... & I thought that thing while I'm inside the pool of total anxiety because of the daily routine toils of every biochemistry student. Everything is Meaningless- & It was said in the Book of Ecclesiastes. That's why some atheists do have a point (but I'm not backsliding here or something). Ponder on this: Do your being up-to-date with the latest trends really do mean something? People in the future will tend to forget what you have been updated with, so, what's the point? Is there a point on acquiring knowledge that in the end it will be opposed? Actually, some reply to that as, 'of course, to survive & to be one with the environment.' But is there a point, really, of having an environment that will surely one day, will be doomed into oblivion? Doubting that there's really the end to everything that we see that are empirical? Even science says that. I won't care to elaborate because it's very long, but, see for yourself. Even atheists... even though they have this temporary 'point', do their arguments really have a point? Are they arguing only to satisfy themselves? What's the point of satisfying oneself when one will die someday? What's the point of everything I'm saying? All I know is one thing- one & only thing- God Chooses. That's it. Why waste time on thinking about Free Will when even our own actions are planned beforehand. THERE'S NO POINT. Get my temporary point? Think about it really hard for a while... Seemed paradoxical, but nothing is logical without going outside of logic. Yup.
"That which is crooked cannot be made straight: and that which is wanting cannot be numbered."
-Ecclesiastes 1:15.

The Day I Haven't Slept & What It Had Become... (zzz)

2005-03-10T00:32:00.000-08:00

I tried to finish a whole assigned problem set in Physical Chemistry the whole night- imagine?! FOR SIX WHOLE HOURS OF NON-STOP ANALYSIS!!! Yes! I'm feeling a little bit like zombie today... I fell asleep inside the class & hallucinated tremendously while taking a departmental exam in genetics later on that morning. I've never felt so awful since kindergarten. I never fail to sleep every night usually... even if sometimes it would take me only four to five hours sleeping just to be on time for my earliest classes the next day (at 7 a.m.). I started to become nonsensical... feeling like drunk. I nearly bumped a guy which is silently going to a class (I think) as I approached the coffee stall. Thankfully I worked my sleep while the peeps at our corner are conducting cell groups. Then I woke up... & suddenly I felt a very painful stomachache. Then, I remembered what our cell group was discussing previously... & it's about suffering. Yes! It's NORMAL to SUFFER, for we're considered sheep to be slaughtered. But that can't take our hoping away... that's right, & the hoping's beautiful... for it's a redemption of our whole totality. Even though we're busy, as always (& knowing that BUSY without taking a time with Him means Being Under Satan's Yoke)... No one can take the great love away from Him to us. Imagine that! That's why He made the greatest bloodshed for us all. Nothing's cooler than that. Not even an RC cola (which costs a hefty Php 5.00) could beat that. YES. & THAT'S FINAL.
"This could very well be the calm before the storm, that brings destruction to our lives..."
-from the song Calm Before The Storm by No Innocent Victim from their album Tipping The Scales

A very expensive day... & also a day of trials & philosophies

2005-03-07T00:57:00.000-08:00

Consider this statement: "You can pray to saints because they can mediate between you & God. Everything moves using a medium. Those people that think, 'Oh, God has the only power to help me get through some hard situations', do they say that they can't get help from other people as well? Do they say, for example, 'Oh, I can't get help from my parents because I can get help anyway from God!" It can be partly true, but the statement used false analogies relating media, saints, & people. You can get help from LIVING people, that's true, & NOT FROM DEAD PEOPLE. The statement 'Everything moves using a medium' can also be true for this case, but for us Christians the medium we need is Jesus. You can consider our belief as being dogmatic, but it's more of a logic & also lives in the realm of the knowable. The said statement could also be partly false because of some things which are 'given' (or established). Take for example, Electromagnetic waves. They move the same speed whatever relative speed you have. Doesn't that establish objectivity? Doesn't that say truth isn't founded on social or individual constructs? Doesn't that say truth resides only on a being's effect seen through other beings, not just human beings? Yeah man. Which is why there's a God. & why should we BELIEVE that there is a God, which is omnipotent & omniscient. Maybe I'll just shut up first because this shows that I'm really really hungry... usually when you see begin to talk about these things. Because of my brain's unusual capacity of operating successfully without ATP. Maybe I'll just go home & eat something. Maybe I'll just sleep & pray until these things stop shouting inside my head. Oh well.
"Choose Life."
-Deuteronomy 30:16

BY THE WAY HIGHWAY... I FORGOT SOMETHING

2005-03-05T00:00:00.000-08:00

he he he... these peepz also have the coolest blogs I've seen during the entire history of forever!!! (or am I just flattering anybody? Well, I DON'T CARE.) Hee hee... well... here they are... http://bagongblogniej.blogspot.com, http://lainnir.blogspot.com, http://lorena127.blogspot.com, http://labe214.blogspot.com, http://theseeitcohm.blogspot.com, &... I forgot the others... oh well. By the way highway, I remembered something I read in the comics section of the Philippine Journal. I will not mention what comic strip it is, but it's about a christian student girl who's trying to reach out to another female student. The former is portrayed negatively as something that's kind of lisp. "Letsh Praish The Lord" is quoted. I think this is a truth in life: Christians are depicted or even stereotyped as geeks or lame guys who run & talk to people, shouting "Alive, Alive" & "Praise The Lord", & sometimes very feminine, conceited, righteous, & has the I-don't-care-about-you-because-you're-outside-our-beliefs attitude. This goes to peeps out there that we can't leave the unbelievers aside, & also to unbelievers themselves. We're more than "Alive, Alive". You'll see what our point is. You'll see that we're not falling inside a new religion, but a new lifestyle. That's all... this is getting a bit long... thanks to the inspiration God gave to me by using the band Stryper as a tool... I'm currently listening to their 1985 hit "Soldiers Under Command".
"Guess what I found in my sock last night! Go on... take a guess!"
- Spongebob talking inside Mr. Krabbs consciousness in a Spongebob Squarepants Episode about Mr. Krabbs & the #1 soda drink hat

Whoa... at last! Heh Heh... All aboard the mainstream

2005-03-04T23:28:00.000-08:00

Hours ago when I listened to my favorite station in my transistor radio, there's this set of songs that they promote under a title "New Music on NU 107". Amazingly, they featured Underoath! Yuppers... they featured their song "Reinventing Your Exit" which is in their latest album "They're Only Chasing Safety". I think it's only a matter of time when some positive rock bands will be accepted in mainstream rock stations out of their own place! Yeah man. I was also surprised when Thousand Foot Krutch's "Rawkfist" & Battery's "It's A..." made it to NU's Midnight Countdown. Also, there's this band which is often played in NU's positive rock program Against The Flow which is called Still, & it's a cebuano rock band with emo-styled songs that are positive, & spiritual. So if you're listening to Dashboard Confessional, Beloved, Watashi Wa, or Subseven, then try listening to their songs! Try also watching the Underoath song's video... it's somewhat symbolic, but has a good concept. I've also discovered a new site which you can watch more than 7,000 music videos... it's on www.singingfool.com. Hee hee... that's all...
"Let everything that has breath praise the lord. PRAISE THE LORD."
-Psalms 150:6

The Day That Should Be Busy But Wasn't The Case

2005-03-01T18:10:00.000-08:00

I woke up... & It's... 5:00 in the morning! Oh no! Finally I showered myself with tons of water & an oily soap that doesn't come out of the skin even after one rinsing. & then, I realized that I haven't reviewed yet for the exam in my class which is scheduled first thing in the morning! I've known it only yesterday when my exhausted friend & classmate in that subject, when she was running to the computer library for some stuff to finish, & then I came across her. I entered the classroom at 8:00 a.m. (The test started at 7) & yes! I've got an hour to finish the test (we're given two hours to finish it)! Sometimes this happens to me... I realize that someone speaks to me that there should be something that should be done, & it must be done immediately. & yet, my body tells me that it could be done later on... or tomorrow... or next week... or maybe even next month! & then, when I start to cram things up I begin to realize the importance of time management. I also realized that the minutes or hours I spent on lying down, watching television, listening to radio, or eating junk food should be spent on solving problem sets, reading in advance lessons to be taken up, or even typing some required papers. Maybe I'm just too relaxed which shouldn't be the case. Maybe I need help from the One to strengthen my body to press on towards what should be achieved, not just lying anywhere & pronouncing the letter z. That's all.
"...I'm pressing on. pressing on, all my distress is going, going gone. (pressing on, pressing on) & I won't sit back, & take this anymore. 'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door. & to go back to where I was would just be wrong. I'm pressing on."
-from the song Pressing On by Relient K from the album The Anatomy Of The Tongue In Cheek

Hee Hee... My First Ever Blogger... Hear The Roar From The Wilderness

2005-02-28T00:43:00.000-08:00

Ha Ha Ha... just finished typing all the details about my new blogger... To those who just tuned in... I invite you to listen to my created station at Yahoo! Launch, If you'd like to hear some headbangin' stuff without losin' their morality or absoluteness... I've been rating some songs & albums since the time when I was in the process of rebirth (to those who have been my org-mates for the past few years... you know what I mean... since August of 2004). Well, a very exhausting afternoon has just passed like flowing water from a mountain rapid... fortunately no toxic organic substance had passed inside my nostrils the same way this exhausting afternoon did. I can't finish any poems that I have since these past few months... which kept on grumbling inside my head telling me, "Hey man... It's time to substantiate what you had in your mind!" Whoa. Take it as weird, but it's just the way I am. That's why I'm still wandering into this world... but not alone, & the wilderness that I'm walking into does not lead me to the outskirts of the dark forest this world's full of, but into the new light that shines unto me. My nature could still be wolf, but I'm a dead wolf already... because I've been crucified. But now I'm alive in someone who created all these stuff we're seeing in this world... he he he...
"Burning Bridges, Burning Bridges, Shut myself off from the world... Life Purified Again... I Won't Look Back To The Chains That Bound Me..."
-Haste The Day's Blue 42 from their album Burning Bridges